Happy New Year(‘s Eve), readers!
I wanted to share with you some of my thoughts as we transition into yet another year, one that will surely feel even shorter than the one just completed. As a way of saying thank you for supporting this toddling blogger’s first steps, I’d like to invite you to focus at the end of the year on what is truly important. Me.
No, no, ok … it’s not me we should focus on, it’s what I think. And I think that what’s most important is to remember how necessary and valuable each of our stories is. And in doing so, to recognize that each of us has her own story. And in doing that, to be reminded of our responsibility to each other. To that end, I invite you to join me in giving to one of the following nonprofits, chosen by MoveOn and its members. I think it’s a good selection, representing food, shelter, and women’s heath.
And if your generosity knows no bounds, I invite you to donate to my personal cause, which you can read about below, or on my website.
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My goal in 2010 was to begin to reinvent myself and to do it publicly. To crack open the gates of fear that I have spent decades building around my authentic self. To open my wounds to the sting of fresh air, and bare my scars to strangers. I didn’t know that meant starting a blog, but it turned out to be a powerful way of connecting with others and becoming more comfortable with sharing things that would typically be reserved for my therapist. Some days, I still wonder if blogging is a sign of mental illness, but I remind myself that I am sharing my story not out of conceit or self congratulation, but out of the sincere belief that it matters. I think I have lived a unique life, so far. My circumstances have led me to understand myself simultaneously as a member of every group and of none; to be so comfortable in my own skin that I have no desire to belong, and yet so fearful of being rejected that I need mining tools to know even my own desires. But rather than choosing defeat, I choose to write. To try my best to learn the lessons placed before me. To accept my life as a gift and weave it into something that might be offered to others.
Going into 2011, my goal is to write, every day. Ok, most days. To create a regular schedule for my blog. And to move forward on my memoir. It’s not easy, writing a book. I am comforted by the words of Annie Dillard, bestselling author of The Writing Life.
Writing a memoir isn’t just about sitting down with pen and paper or Macbook Pro. It’s about living. About seeing. About opening up to new channels of thought, ones you had likely roadblocked years before. It’s about commitment, love, and integrity. It requires an unwavering confidence in oneself coupled with a strong sense of humility. It takes time. It’s the hardest thing I’ve ever done, and I’ve only scratched the surface. Your support means the world to me.
Click here if you’d like to support me in a way other than subscribing to and reading my blog (as if that wasn’t enough). I’ll even show you where your hard earned dollars will go!
Thank you for being you… and Happy New Year!